Bridesmaid

Today i am very happy to announce that my best friend and his gf are going to get married on 20th of feb 2009, that day is going to be the best day of my life because it's the day when two of my most dearest friends are going to become life partners. The boy is my childhood friend whom i have known for all my life, we have seen so much together that it feels as if we have identical perception for the world.

He always longed for love all his life and when he finally found his special someone, i had no words to express my joy, at that moment i knew that his "girl" is going to be my best friend (it was premonition of some kind but it became true). The girl (whom i always refer to as "my bhabhi") came close to me because she knew if she wants to know about his future life partner than she has to take my help, within few months she became the most important person in my life, i always devoted my full attention to her woes and worries because i always felt that it was my responsibility to get her out of her insecurities (which most girls feels about their love).

Don't know if it was out of desperation or longing for acceptance that i opened up the darker side of my persona to her, but i knew that if i couldn't tell her than i wont be able to tell my best friend either, so one day i just told her everything which bugged me for 22yrs and i wasn't much surprised when she accepted me with her full heart, since that day i am her best girl friend (that she always wanted to have). After revealing my TG side to my bhabhi it was time for letting my best friend to know about it aswell, so i asked her if i should do it or not and she told me that "no matter what, you're going to remain his best friend throughout life time", this came out to be true when (after little problem) my friend accepted me aswell, after that there was no looking back (although i feel bad about my friend sometimes because he lost his male friend that day) both of them sacrificed so much for me that no matter how much i try i can never repay them, really friends like these change a persons life forever (and that's the reason why i hold so much respect for friendship).

So as the day to the wedding is coming nearer and nearer my concern for them is getting high with each passing day (because i know these days are very critical for their future), everyday i have to resolve their confusions and settle their fights (can't blame them as they both are very young, my friend is 24 and my bhabhi is just 22yrs old). Recently i realized that men don't like to share their feelings with others as much as girls like to do, so this sometimes make me feels rejected because my friend hardly shares his daily life with me anymore, he just don't seems to feel comfortable in revealing his emotions to anyone, but on the other hand my bhabhi shares even the most personal feelings with me (and i really appreciate the trust which she shows in me).

Few days ago (out of the blue) she messaged and asked me to help her out in her wedding shopping, i was little surprised by that because mostly girls do that with their family or very very close girl friends, so when she saw a little hesitation (and little coyness) in me, she told me frankly that she consider me her only true friend and want no one else to accompany her in this important task, i had no way to turn her request down because i knew that if she trust me with all her heart than who i am to break it, so with little giggling and shyness i agreed to become her official bridesmaid .

simi x